wiggle room

Last night around 8, john and I started getting the girls ready for bed. Claire was asleep in about five minutes…poor little baby was worn out. Her big sister on the other hand, had a plan of her own! She was so funny! She was singing and laughing and climbing all over the place. John and I were too busy laughing at her to think about what time it was. About 9:20 Lily came to lay with me on the couch. She was craziest little wiggle worm. She was turning and giggling and rubbing my face…anything to keep her eyes from closing. I looked down and in a matter of about 10 seconds, she was out. Curled up as close to me as she could get, snoring away…

When she finally did sleep I just held her and listened to her sweet breathing, being thankful that the wiggling had ceased. In that moment, I caught a glimpse of what the Lord must feel like when I stop wiggling. He will call me to do something and I will wiggle and squirm and fight it as long as I can. Ultimately, I will settle down and stop wiggling, knowing that His decision is best. I will curl up to Him and just be. Last night, I got just a glimmer of what His heart feels like when we finally rest in His decision and His love. There is a sweet peace that only comes when we cuddle up to our Creator…