Do-It-yourself-ness

This weekend I learned about do-it-yourself-ness. I don’t think that is an actual word, but I am using it just the same!

I had asked someone multiple times to do something for me. To me, this request seemed simple, but three weeks had passed and zero. So, Saturday afternoon I got a case of the do-it-yourself-ness. I decided that I was more than capable of taking this task on myself. So, off I went….and off I DID. I got that task completed in record time with shining results. My chest was puffed up with pride and my “I did it myself-ness” took over! It took about an hour to realize that I had way overdone myself as my back began to ache and my exhaustion set in. Don’t think for a moment that I let anyone know I was hurting – no way! Too much pride. I had done it and I would suffer the pain regardless of how bad it got. Smart? No.
We do this all the time don’t we? Maybe we pray and pray, asking God – begging God for help. After a while, we think that like humans, he hasn’t heard us. So, we get a case of the do-it-myself-ness. We take matters into our own hands and get things done. Done in God’s will, probably not. In His time, usually not. In His way, nope. But we get it done. And then we realize just how “done” we are. We begin to hurt…to ache. But do we run to God and say, “I should have waited on You to do it, no matter how long it took You.” Nope, well at least I don’t. I just ache and hurt all alone, not telling a soul…..not telling my soul Savior (as if He might not know). I keep it to myself thinking, “I did it, now I have to suffer until I find a way to fix this situation.” Why? Why? Why? There is no sense in this. All we have to do is say, “Jesus, I took that from you when it did not belong to me. I took it out of Your perfect hands, and Your perfect timing and I really did it. HELP.” He will not hesitate. He will rescue us, but being the gentleman that He is, He waits for us to ask. Aren’t you sick of hurting and aching all alone? So, stop. Cry out and ask for His help. Psalm 38:22 Come quickly to help me, O Lord my Savior.